Wow such an insightful read. Thank you for sharing this part of you. Hoping the Substack community gives you some good company 😊
“By being misunderstood at every stage of life, how could I not be ready for the loneliness of becoming Muslim?”
Subhanallah Allah has His ways tgat we can truly never understand. But you’re right, youre never too prepared. Life throws things at you tgat make you question if you can make it through. But iA we’ll all get through our own unique challenges.
Also youre so right, the season of visible change. Barakallahu Feeki! Allah increase your knowledge and make you content and happy. Guide your mom and your sisters. This was beautiful habibti. Looking forward to part two.
Joining Substack was also one of the best things I did this year. And thanks for the nudge Jeri. I might have not taken Substack seriously if I didn’t download the app. And I downloaded it thanks to you.
jeri this is making me cry. May Allah continue to bless you with knowledge and guidance and put you in the company of those He loves and guides those who you love. i really do love reading your reflections and the lessons you've extracted from your experiences. you're right you're entire life was in preparation for everything you are to experience. on the thread of loneliness, something i was thinking about recently was how many of prophets/people mentioned in the quran also faced periods of immense growth when they were lonely. or maybe their entire trial was lonely. like Asiyah in the house of firawn. Maryam when she would pray in the masjid in solitude and then again when she had a child. when Nuh AS spent centuries preaching and even his family didn't listen. when Ayyub AS was given trial after trial. when Musa AS was in the dessert. when Yunus AS left his community feeling like a failure and spent time in the belly of the whale. Yusuf AS in the well and in prison. when Muhammad SAW was boycotted by those that had previously honored and trusted him and he lost those closest to him. there are so many stories of either physical solitude or feeling lonely even within a community.
Hi Sameh 🥺🥺 Thank you for all these beautiful reminders, this is what I have partly been reflecting on whilst feeling the pain of transformation but balancing it with gratitude of knowing these parts are of learning in some way. I am really happy you love reading my words, you can't imagine how much this makes my day when I see comments like this, May Allah (Swt) reward you for your kind words and inshaAllah we get to continue enjoying each others words for a long time my lovely. Thank you! <3
this is so beautifully written subhanallah and your reflections are powerful. even as a born muslim, i related heavily to some of the things you talked about and i feel so seen. thank you so much 🩷🩵
Thank you so much sis! Feeling seen through reading words is a deep feeling, I am glad my words made you feel this. I am honoured. May Allah (Swt) reward you. <3
Thank you for sharing this with us. I think it’s so painfully beautiful how you’ve connected Surah al-Dhuha to your own story. Being different is what makes you you, and sounds like it has also been one of your strengths in many ways. What you’ve shared shows how deeply you’ve learned to listen to your heart and follow what feels true even when the road is lonely and there isn’t anyone mirroring or reflecting what you’re experiencing within… which is not easy at all! I pray Allah surrounds you with people that see you completely and spaces where you find alignment. May he give you ease and solace when it is all too overwhelming. Sending you love 🤍🤲🏼
Thank you so much for reading my words and taking the time to write this kind comment sis! It means a lot truly. And thank you for your kind dua. Ameen Ajma'een <3 JazakAllah khair
Where to start! Alhamdullilah that Allah Alhadi has guided you to the right path because your heart is originally clear. Allah does not guide those with evil or malicious hearts. You are not strange, but privileged. Allah SWT is with you and will bless every step you take ( through His mercy). I normally read with a sense of rationality. But I read your pieces with a high emotional state because you write from your heart. 💞
But the part when you wrote about those who had mistreated you at school because you are from a different social class enrages me soooooo much!
Thank you dear Marwa! I sometimes feel as though I have to learn a style of writing or perhaps a niche. But writing from my heart is why I came here and at the moment it is great for me, alhamdulillah. Your words have only reaffirmed that writing in such way is enough. May Allah (Swt) reward you in abundance my lovely <3
I know my wife, a convert, goes through and has gone through much the same. May Allah increase you in all that is good, in this world and the next -- Aameen. Alhamdulillah, by your writing and experiences themselves I can see He gives much.
May Allah (Swt) continue to make it easier for your wife and surround her with those who will be good for her heart and her faith! JazakAllah khair for your kind words
Wow such an insightful read. Thank you for sharing this part of you. Hoping the Substack community gives you some good company 😊
“By being misunderstood at every stage of life, how could I not be ready for the loneliness of becoming Muslim?”
Subhanallah Allah has His ways tgat we can truly never understand. But you’re right, youre never too prepared. Life throws things at you tgat make you question if you can make it through. But iA we’ll all get through our own unique challenges.
Also youre so right, the season of visible change. Barakallahu Feeki! Allah increase your knowledge and make you content and happy. Guide your mom and your sisters. This was beautiful habibti. Looking forward to part two.
Alhamdulillah starting a substack earlier this year has been a beautiful journey.
Thank you for your kind words and dua Hiba, means a lot as always. Ameen Ajma'een.
and AMEEN AMEEN AMEEN. I am smiling at my computer now in the middle of my work day hehehe. Thank you again <3
Happy to hear I made you smile 😊
Joining Substack was also one of the best things I did this year. And thanks for the nudge Jeri. I might have not taken Substack seriously if I didn’t download the app. And I downloaded it thanks to you.
jeri this is making me cry. May Allah continue to bless you with knowledge and guidance and put you in the company of those He loves and guides those who you love. i really do love reading your reflections and the lessons you've extracted from your experiences. you're right you're entire life was in preparation for everything you are to experience. on the thread of loneliness, something i was thinking about recently was how many of prophets/people mentioned in the quran also faced periods of immense growth when they were lonely. or maybe their entire trial was lonely. like Asiyah in the house of firawn. Maryam when she would pray in the masjid in solitude and then again when she had a child. when Nuh AS spent centuries preaching and even his family didn't listen. when Ayyub AS was given trial after trial. when Musa AS was in the dessert. when Yunus AS left his community feeling like a failure and spent time in the belly of the whale. Yusuf AS in the well and in prison. when Muhammad SAW was boycotted by those that had previously honored and trusted him and he lost those closest to him. there are so many stories of either physical solitude or feeling lonely even within a community.
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Hi Sameh 🥺🥺 Thank you for all these beautiful reminders, this is what I have partly been reflecting on whilst feeling the pain of transformation but balancing it with gratitude of knowing these parts are of learning in some way. I am really happy you love reading my words, you can't imagine how much this makes my day when I see comments like this, May Allah (Swt) reward you for your kind words and inshaAllah we get to continue enjoying each others words for a long time my lovely. Thank you! <3
this is so beautifully written subhanallah and your reflections are powerful. even as a born muslim, i related heavily to some of the things you talked about and i feel so seen. thank you so much 🩷🩵
Thank you so much sis! Feeling seen through reading words is a deep feeling, I am glad my words made you feel this. I am honoured. May Allah (Swt) reward you. <3
Thank you for sharing this with us. I think it’s so painfully beautiful how you’ve connected Surah al-Dhuha to your own story. Being different is what makes you you, and sounds like it has also been one of your strengths in many ways. What you’ve shared shows how deeply you’ve learned to listen to your heart and follow what feels true even when the road is lonely and there isn’t anyone mirroring or reflecting what you’re experiencing within… which is not easy at all! I pray Allah surrounds you with people that see you completely and spaces where you find alignment. May he give you ease and solace when it is all too overwhelming. Sending you love 🤍🤲🏼
Thank you so much for reading my words and taking the time to write this kind comment sis! It means a lot truly. And thank you for your kind dua. Ameen Ajma'een <3 JazakAllah khair
Where to start! Alhamdullilah that Allah Alhadi has guided you to the right path because your heart is originally clear. Allah does not guide those with evil or malicious hearts. You are not strange, but privileged. Allah SWT is with you and will bless every step you take ( through His mercy). I normally read with a sense of rationality. But I read your pieces with a high emotional state because you write from your heart. 💞
But the part when you wrote about those who had mistreated you at school because you are from a different social class enrages me soooooo much!
Thank you dear Marwa! I sometimes feel as though I have to learn a style of writing or perhaps a niche. But writing from my heart is why I came here and at the moment it is great for me, alhamdulillah. Your words have only reaffirmed that writing in such way is enough. May Allah (Swt) reward you in abundance my lovely <3
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میں اس لئے ہجوم کا حصہ نہیں بنا
سورج کبھی نجوم کا حصہ نہیں بنا
I never became just one of the masses
Because the sun never became just one of the stars
- Shahid Makli
May you become a sun amongst the stars.
Wow this is extremely beautiful, thank you for sharing Saad! Ameen ajma'een. I need to save, I can already feel it marinating in my mind. Wow
I know my wife, a convert, goes through and has gone through much the same. May Allah increase you in all that is good, in this world and the next -- Aameen. Alhamdulillah, by your writing and experiences themselves I can see He gives much.
May Allah (Swt) continue to make it easier for your wife and surround her with those who will be good for her heart and her faith! JazakAllah khair for your kind words
You are blessed. Hold firm 🤍
Alhamdulillah. Thank you so much!
there’s so much sincerity and depth in the way you write about faith and becoming. may Allah continue to put barakah in your words.