Tears Are a Mercy
On letting yourself cry and understanding mercy
Tears area mercy from Him.
and the eyes of Allah's Messenger (ﷺ) (p.b.u.h) started shedding tears. `Abdur Rahman bin `Auf said, "O Allah's Apostle, even you are weeping!" He said, "O Ibn `Auf, this is mercy." - Sahih al-Bukhari 1303. Book 23, Hadith 61.
And what if the Shaytan’s whispers flew too close to the sun this time? Perhaps today I am the sun, and tomorrow I am the moon - a mere reflection of who I was yesterday. Oxygen igniting fire by my jugular and now I sit with the consequences of those whispers. As though a voice could become two hands, and hold me. Softly. Harshly? Softly? Harshly.
If my cheeks wish to grace the salt of a moment, please do not call me too sad. Allah (SWT) did not create this life to resemble Jannah. I remind myself of words I heard recently: ‘there is no eternal happiness here only there’. So when I speak of my sadness and you tell me I am too sad, I can only assume you lack emotional depth or that you have simply forgotten your own sadness.
Up and down. Up and down. Up. Down. Down. Happiness was never promised as a permanent state. And when I ask you to hold my hand, your ideals pull me under. For the sake of love - or perhaps for the sake of Him -please, just let me be sad. Not only this once, but every time my cheeks, sweet as they are, ask for salt, let them have it. For the sake of me. Let my mind consume the five courses it intended to long before you and I were ever even here.
- Warning: Part 2. Has to be read on desktop only!! -
If sadness is a mercy, why is everyone scared of my tears?
The next part is spaced out in a similar fashion to the image above. It will only make sense on your desktop guys! <3 On watching myself drown The daughter - The absent father - The Mother If I could run away please don't If I could stay "I will be here tomorrow" please stay Im scared please forgive me I'm still here The earth is big "I am always here" the world is yours The sun is burning my pretty daughter you are the sun In all it's glory you shine brighter you are brilliant And I cannot bear it I can't be here anymore I'm still here Time for the flame to go time to blow time to ignite These cuts nothing to do with me here is a plaster Turn to scars they can be bandaged here is the bandage This cannot be bandaged they can be bandaged they cannot be I am here No you are not What if you go again I won't go hold my hand, dear What if I become you your heart is of gold What if I go too hold me tighter What if you go too I'm still here How can I be enough you are enough How can I be loved I love you What's wrong with me Nothing, just listen Something is wrong with me you are beautiful I cannot bear it just stay a while I can feel it in the air don't go running My feet are ready to run away from me I can't love anything as much as i love you I can't be loved you must learn to love too
Conditional nothings, unconditional everything’s
i cant relate to you
your heart, fluent
in unconditional love.
mine has no native tongue
i am ḍaʿīf
and you are qawiyy.
so let my tears fall
before i do.
don’t fall for me -
i run
following my tears
down, down,
and away.
your hand accepts mine,
as mine resists its own mercy.
comfort in absence
learns my shape,
in the shadows.
i am optimistic
about the worst outcomes.
i linger with the shadow of doubt,
burning bright like venus -
can you see us?
this is me and my alter ego.
one of us believes in love,
the other never will
they hold hands.
i cannot hold yours.
a tug of war with myself -
the shaytan wins,
but only by His will,
only by His command.
my palms scorch,
burned by the rope.
every attempt to hold on
collapses into scarlet floors.
perhaps
i am qawiyy,
and you -
ḍaʿīf.
Am I finally allowed to cry now?
And will you pretend that when I cry, nothing has happened?
Or pretend I am not my fathers daughter?
Will you chase me, pick me up when I fall from running?
Would you let me enjoy His mercy on me?
Can you let me grieve the living, and then start my day without reminding me?
Can you let this salt water wash away my sins -
, wash away my feelings -
, wash away me?
Wow!! This is amazing
Truly felt it.💗
This tugged my heart. Wow