I had a BIG smile on my face when I saw you alluding the story of Aisha r.a. when she lost her necklace and everyone stayed put and looked for it. At least I'm assuming you were alluding to that story. And what a beautiful story it is. We were give the gift of tayammum through that, because they didn't have water to make wudu. And what's amusing is that her necklace was under the camel and they only saw it after they decided to stop looking and leave.
I don't have any answers for your question Jeri. I just know that the man next to me is playing plants vs zombies and that Allah swt is going to take care of you. He loves you more than your mother ever could, and your mother loves you to bits. Your answers will appear soon iA.
it most definitely is what i was alluding to ofcourse, the Hadith always gives me goosebumps! i know we discussed a little about this but wanted to still respond. i just cant get over how beautiful it is we got tayammum from this situation. it’s honestly a complete example in something being delayed or going completely wrong and how it can create the perfect conditions for something that will bring ease, if not now, then in the future InshaAllah.
hahaha i wonder what that person playing that game is doing now! ameen thank you mahmood. jazakAllah khair
Jeri, this was ART and so so real and raw. The first thing I noticed was how your relationship with your mother shone through your experiences. It reminded me of the process of purifying gold by subjecting it to fire, which is actually where the Arabic words for zakaah and tazkiyah come from. Breaking down in front of a parent as an adult is truly an experience like no other— they see your little hurts as a child and they see you at your most vulnerable as an adult, but your relationship comes out of that trial stronger and more pure once you strip down your protective walls. May Allah bless your mother for her utmost support and continue to increase the love between the both of you. The concept of meeting yourself where you are— OOF is all I can say about that and your poem. It’s a hard conversation to have with yourself for sure, and the battle with a perfectionist mindset is a daily struggle. Thank you for this, truly. You’re doing great, sis 💛💛
Thank you for sharing this, your words carry so much depth and honesty. I hear the weight of what you’re feeling, and I’m sorry you’ve often felt unseen or only partially known. I want you to know that as your mother I am always opened to the real you, even the messy, complex parts. You shouldn’t have to curate yourself to be worthy of connection. It’s draining to give so much and feel like it’s not truly received. If you ever want to share more unfiltered, I’d be honoured to listen and meet you where you are, always and forever my beautiful girl 💕
"you can come out one of two people from trauma; the one that traumatises or compassionate"
i know what its like to be hurt. I know what its like to be hurt by the people who were meant to protect you. but i have always thought of how just because someone hurt you, you dont have to hurt other. its easier said than done.
i had the blues today. one of those days where i am a slug and not a person and although its night time, this post really made me feel better. even my coffee started to taste better
My goodness this is beautiful, I randomly came across someone mentioning your account and decided to read the first post I saw, and I am without words Mashallah.
I wish I could narrow down a specific part I liked, I usually comment with a quotation from people’s pieces and how that specific sentence/paragraph stood out however I cannot seem to here, reading this felt like the most intimate experience and I’m honoured that I was able to.
Will be reading the rest of your work, please I beg of you continue writing forever.
The ability to speak the truth begins with tahajjud and silence. Once you can tell yourself the truth, you can be who you are in the world too Jeri. Be patient and kind. At 19 I was a firecracker and at 39 I’m the same. But reading the Quran and really listening to what God has to say — especially when I disagree, am uncomfortable, sad, etc.—- it opens up pathways.
I’ve made so many new friends in this stage of life, as a mom of an infant. My college friends have kids getting married. Some things have frayed. It’s all a cycle, and I meet younger couples with kids my kids age and I’m like “wow, I wish I had that sense of calm purpose in my 20s” but God introduces you to exactly who you need when you ask Him for great suhba !! Don’t overthink it just be open to the possibility of change when it’s not in your control
this is such sound and calming advise sister, it means a lot that you took the time to read my words and comment such thoughtful things back. JazakAllah Khair, may Allah (swt) continue to open doors for you and surround you with those who are good for you
i most definitely need to be more open to things that are not in my control, that’s where i hold myself accountable because sometimes i overthink or try everything to fix a situation or be “perfect” but that’s not what Allah (swt) asks of us, so thank you again for reminding me of this! and giving me a glimpse of light into different chapters that are to come InshaAllah. Thank you sister 🩵🩵
🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷 we are all on a journey and you never know who you will bump into and whose heart is connected to you just from these words you write.. so happy to learn from writers like you on this journey too
i appreciate your kindness so much, and i have extreme gratitude for being able to find a beautiful community on here. and likewise sister! JazakAllah Khair 🩵🩵
« before i ever ask somebody to meet me where i am, do i need to meet me there first? » ouchhh
This one hurt because it made me realise im actually afraid of meeting myself. And so, how can i expect someone to meet me at the right place ? Who can do it if not me ? How can i become that solid « me » that won’t be afraid to meet herself ?
hahaha the internal dialogue sounds like my own mind sis! sometimes somebody meeting you where you are is them finding your essence and deciding it’s a journey they want to be on with YOU, because whilst they see different versions of you in their future… it’s the YOU part that makes them grounded and happy in the present regardless.
also make dua (swt) for me to meet myself where i am i constantly ask Allah (swt) to remove self doubt, and to keep my heart and intentions sincere 🩵🩵 also thanks sis for commenting JazakAllah Khair
Reading about the lost necklace reminds me of the story of Aishah RA.
Your thoughts resonated with me. I can think of the time I had these thoughts and I still have these thoughts sometimes. I struggles to recognize who I was, my habits and routines. When I was going through a particularly rough period of time, I lost my habits, my routines, my discipline. And I could not come to terms with my identity.
Allah blessed me to cross paths with a friend and she met me where I was. I could speak to her about my struggles and my journey. Our friendship was rooted in faith . No judgement. We always shared sincere advice (an-nush) even if it was not we wanted to hear. And that helped me meet myself where I was.
Not sure if this would help but I hope it does. Also my writing is not as poetic as you. I'm a beginner and writing isn't really my thing.
having a friend who advises and brings you to the side when they see you doing something wrong or bad for your faith is so important!!!
it does help hiba! don’t be silly you’re writing is brilliant and sharing the insights you do on the platforms you have, have been making an impact in places you do not know.
thank you so much for commenting and having such kind words, may Allah (swt) reward you
P.s this most definitely was about the Hadith of Aisha (RA) , a comparison into thinking not just worthy in a romantic sense but will we ever attain faith and characteristics of the mothers of the believers InshaAllah
This was so touching and also so RELATABLE, there's always so much comfort in reading someone's words and finding your own thoughts in them and it's something I so often experience with your writing. Brilliant as always! 🩷🩷🩷
blushing as always when i read your comments. because this is SUCH A COMPLIMENT thank you so much ne2ila!!! may Allah (swt) reward you for your kind words 🌞🩵
Great writing. Finding yourself, your true self, is something fantastic, and profound. When you truly find yourself, then you have discovered the essence of the Creator.
oh man i read half of this last night and the rest now, you took the sentiment out of my heart, lungs and mind and turned them into words I could have only dreamed of arranging
“You carry the ache of someone who’s been made into dust, only to rise with petals in her mouth” that’s a beautifully written statement MashaAllah.
i always look forward to your wonderful comments brother! thank you as always
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ameen. some parts of this dua had my eyes watering. thank you so so much may Allah (swt) continue to bless you in the way you write, bring ease and comfort in your life and keep you close to that which is good for your faith brother
I had a BIG smile on my face when I saw you alluding the story of Aisha r.a. when she lost her necklace and everyone stayed put and looked for it. At least I'm assuming you were alluding to that story. And what a beautiful story it is. We were give the gift of tayammum through that, because they didn't have water to make wudu. And what's amusing is that her necklace was under the camel and they only saw it after they decided to stop looking and leave.
I don't have any answers for your question Jeri. I just know that the man next to me is playing plants vs zombies and that Allah swt is going to take care of you. He loves you more than your mother ever could, and your mother loves you to bits. Your answers will appear soon iA.
it most definitely is what i was alluding to ofcourse, the Hadith always gives me goosebumps! i know we discussed a little about this but wanted to still respond. i just cant get over how beautiful it is we got tayammum from this situation. it’s honestly a complete example in something being delayed or going completely wrong and how it can create the perfect conditions for something that will bring ease, if not now, then in the future InshaAllah.
hahaha i wonder what that person playing that game is doing now! ameen thank you mahmood. jazakAllah khair
Jeri, this was ART and so so real and raw. The first thing I noticed was how your relationship with your mother shone through your experiences. It reminded me of the process of purifying gold by subjecting it to fire, which is actually where the Arabic words for zakaah and tazkiyah come from. Breaking down in front of a parent as an adult is truly an experience like no other— they see your little hurts as a child and they see you at your most vulnerable as an adult, but your relationship comes out of that trial stronger and more pure once you strip down your protective walls. May Allah bless your mother for her utmost support and continue to increase the love between the both of you. The concept of meeting yourself where you are— OOF is all I can say about that and your poem. It’s a hard conversation to have with yourself for sure, and the battle with a perfectionist mindset is a daily struggle. Thank you for this, truly. You’re doing great, sis 💛💛
oh im blushing at the “this was ART” part thank you so much sis! & wow i learned a couple new words from this comment too JazakAllah Khair
Ameen, honestly you’re words are so kind and thoughtful. you are definitely right in saying it’s an experience like no other
may Allah (swt) bring ease to those of us who struggle internally with that perfectionist mindset 🩵🩵🩵 thank you again!
Thank you for sharing this, your words carry so much depth and honesty. I hear the weight of what you’re feeling, and I’m sorry you’ve often felt unseen or only partially known. I want you to know that as your mother I am always opened to the real you, even the messy, complex parts. You shouldn’t have to curate yourself to be worthy of connection. It’s draining to give so much and feel like it’s not truly received. If you ever want to share more unfiltered, I’d be honoured to listen and meet you where you are, always and forever my beautiful girl 💕
love you millions mum, alhamdulillah for having a mother like you ❤️❤️❤️ InshaAllah i become even half the woman you are and it would be enough
by the end of this, i was in tears.
"you can come out one of two people from trauma; the one that traumatises or compassionate"
i know what its like to be hurt. I know what its like to be hurt by the people who were meant to protect you. but i have always thought of how just because someone hurt you, you dont have to hurt other. its easier said than done.
i had the blues today. one of those days where i am a slug and not a person and although its night time, this post really made me feel better. even my coffee started to taste better
my words made coffee taste better?? i will be returning back to this comment once in a while so i can feel happy. im so honoured !!!
jazakAllah khair and thank you for being so kind. inshaAllah those blues have faded away now
My goodness this is beautiful, I randomly came across someone mentioning your account and decided to read the first post I saw, and I am without words Mashallah.
I wish I could narrow down a specific part I liked, I usually comment with a quotation from people’s pieces and how that specific sentence/paragraph stood out however I cannot seem to here, reading this felt like the most intimate experience and I’m honoured that I was able to.
Will be reading the rest of your work, please I beg of you continue writing forever.
thank you so much sis for the kind words. it’s appreciated so much that you took the time to read and comment. JazakAllah Khair
reading “continue writing forever” put a huge smile on my face this morning. InshaAllah you enjoy my future work, thank you again! 🩵
Those who only know how to consume what others spill. Pffffff. Jeri.
right???? you get it akif!
generally poetry has a tendency to go over my head, but this was very soft and beautiful
thank you so much! JazakAllah Khair im so glad you liked it and appreciate the comment lots!
The ability to speak the truth begins with tahajjud and silence. Once you can tell yourself the truth, you can be who you are in the world too Jeri. Be patient and kind. At 19 I was a firecracker and at 39 I’m the same. But reading the Quran and really listening to what God has to say — especially when I disagree, am uncomfortable, sad, etc.—- it opens up pathways.
I’ve made so many new friends in this stage of life, as a mom of an infant. My college friends have kids getting married. Some things have frayed. It’s all a cycle, and I meet younger couples with kids my kids age and I’m like “wow, I wish I had that sense of calm purpose in my 20s” but God introduces you to exactly who you need when you ask Him for great suhba !! Don’t overthink it just be open to the possibility of change when it’s not in your control
this is such sound and calming advise sister, it means a lot that you took the time to read my words and comment such thoughtful things back. JazakAllah Khair, may Allah (swt) continue to open doors for you and surround you with those who are good for you
i most definitely need to be more open to things that are not in my control, that’s where i hold myself accountable because sometimes i overthink or try everything to fix a situation or be “perfect” but that’s not what Allah (swt) asks of us, so thank you again for reminding me of this! and giving me a glimpse of light into different chapters that are to come InshaAllah. Thank you sister 🩵🩵
🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷 we are all on a journey and you never know who you will bump into and whose heart is connected to you just from these words you write.. so happy to learn from writers like you on this journey too
i appreciate your kindness so much, and i have extreme gratitude for being able to find a beautiful community on here. and likewise sister! JazakAllah Khair 🩵🩵
« before i ever ask somebody to meet me where i am, do i need to meet me there first? » ouchhh
This one hurt because it made me realise im actually afraid of meeting myself. And so, how can i expect someone to meet me at the right place ? Who can do it if not me ? How can i become that solid « me » that won’t be afraid to meet herself ?
Looool this is an internal dialogue but ouchhhhh
(Loved reading this!)
hahaha the internal dialogue sounds like my own mind sis! sometimes somebody meeting you where you are is them finding your essence and deciding it’s a journey they want to be on with YOU, because whilst they see different versions of you in their future… it’s the YOU part that makes them grounded and happy in the present regardless.
also make dua (swt) for me to meet myself where i am i constantly ask Allah (swt) to remove self doubt, and to keep my heart and intentions sincere 🩵🩵 also thanks sis for commenting JazakAllah Khair
I love your poetry so much. Barakallahu Feeki!
Reading about the lost necklace reminds me of the story of Aishah RA.
Your thoughts resonated with me. I can think of the time I had these thoughts and I still have these thoughts sometimes. I struggles to recognize who I was, my habits and routines. When I was going through a particularly rough period of time, I lost my habits, my routines, my discipline. And I could not come to terms with my identity.
Allah blessed me to cross paths with a friend and she met me where I was. I could speak to her about my struggles and my journey. Our friendship was rooted in faith . No judgement. We always shared sincere advice (an-nush) even if it was not we wanted to hear. And that helped me meet myself where I was.
Not sure if this would help but I hope it does. Also my writing is not as poetic as you. I'm a beginner and writing isn't really my thing.
having a friend who advises and brings you to the side when they see you doing something wrong or bad for your faith is so important!!!
it does help hiba! don’t be silly you’re writing is brilliant and sharing the insights you do on the platforms you have, have been making an impact in places you do not know.
thank you so much for commenting and having such kind words, may Allah (swt) reward you
P.s this most definitely was about the Hadith of Aisha (RA) , a comparison into thinking not just worthy in a romantic sense but will we ever attain faith and characteristics of the mothers of the believers InshaAllah
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Barakallahu Feeki 🤍
This is so gorgeous 🥹 your way with words is amazing <3
thank you so much sis, JazakAllah Khair 🩵
This was so touching and also so RELATABLE, there's always so much comfort in reading someone's words and finding your own thoughts in them and it's something I so often experience with your writing. Brilliant as always! 🩷🩷🩷
blushing as always when i read your comments. because this is SUCH A COMPLIMENT thank you so much ne2ila!!! may Allah (swt) reward you for your kind words 🌞🩵
Ameen, and you for yours 🙂↕️🩷🩷🩷
Great writing. Finding yourself, your true self, is something fantastic, and profound. When you truly find yourself, then you have discovered the essence of the Creator.
thank you so much for your kind words! jazakAllah khair !
oh man i read half of this last night and the rest now, you took the sentiment out of my heart, lungs and mind and turned them into words I could have only dreamed of arranging
what a compliment coming from a brilliant poet himself, thank you so much. jazakAllah khair it means a lot
On an unserious note, I saw the rose and IMMEDIATELY went “OMG THE ROSE FROM BEAUTY AND THE BEAST” 😭
i was living my fairy tale dreams sitting at the table with it sis!!! 🤣🤣 it actually looks exactly like it!! SubhanAllah
“You carry the ache of someone who’s been made into dust, only to rise with petals in her mouth” that’s a beautifully written statement MashaAllah.
i always look forward to your wonderful comments brother! thank you as always
&
ameen. some parts of this dua had my eyes watering. thank you so so much may Allah (swt) continue to bless you in the way you write, bring ease and comfort in your life and keep you close to that which is good for your faith brother
jazakAllah khair!